June 1, 2011

Healing happens in the morning

Yes, healing does happens in the morning! I can remember the day my husband and I had to say farewell to our little Chihuahua Sappy. It was such a horrible experience. Driving Sappy to the vet to do something I never thought I could do.

Sappy was diagnosed with bladder cancer in early June 2003. When I got the news, it was like a ton of bricks hit me. How could this be? My little dog has what? Oh my gosh! Was I dreaming or was this real!? It was real. The grieving kicked in. The vet kept talking, and all I could do is look at Sappy's eyes stare into mine. I could hear him speak into my heart, "Mommy, it'll be OK. God is with us, remember? God is with us!" He helped to calm me, and he also reminded me of our God who has promised to never leave us or forsake us.

After the vet was done talking to us, we walked out of the clinic in disbelief. I carried my little white longhaired, 6 pound dog in my arms and sat in the car in silence. I felt numb and very sad. For the next three months, I grieved. God allowed me to love Sappy for three months from the diagnosis. I kissed him more than usual. I had long conversations with him about Heaven. And, he listened. Sappy was extremely special.

So on Monday, August 4, 2003, with shaky knees and sweaty palms, I carried my little Sappy boy into the vet's clinic to help send him safely home (Heaven). It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. He quietly fell asleep and ran into eternity with God. He was ready. He knew God. There wasn't one day we never talked about God. My fur baby is with God now. :)

I miss him so very much, and the tears are rolling down my face as I write in my blog. And, even after crying for several months, healing came! I still remember him and I'll never forget him ... NEVER!!!!! But, God has healed my broken heart enough to allow for me to love another dog. He's not Sappy, but he is very wonderful too. I adopted another fur baby in honor of Sappy. This little dog has helped me grieve and love again!

My Sappy: I will love you, forever! And, I will see you again in Heaven. That's a promise from God.

After a night of crying, healing came in the morning!